Just Random Thoughts

Good Morning beauties and beaus!! I have been up for quite a while now and I have been trying to figure out what it is that I want to do for the rest of my life......sounds fun doesn't it! Yeah right. I have been doing this since I was about 18 years old now I'm 24 YEARS OLD and now it's getting to the point to where I'm like Lord Jesus help me because you know I'm an undecided mess. I am going to fast for a month and really pray and concentrate on God and getting an answer from Him or better clarity on what I am to do with my life. I kind of have an idea of what I want to do, but it's not certain. If I could have my way I would be a blogger, killer makeup artist, TV personality and a motivational speaker. These are the things that i find joy in doing, so why can't i pick one and zone in on it? I have a million ideas running through my head at 100 mph and it's hard for me to just say, okay I am going to pick this and work on being the best I can be at it. I wonder if God ever look down from Heaven at me and laugh because I am a compulsive indecisive mess of a person. Lol, I will say that I've gotten better at it though just not where I think I should be in my life though I suppose. Well I guess I could go running today before school, because I'm trying to lose some weight and get toned for a healthier me and a better looking me. I'm not insecure about myself, but I am a lot more health conscience because I want to have a long, healthy and vibrant life. I was doing good for a while because I would work out everyday and I stopped eating pork FOR HEALTH PURPOSES and I was going pretty strong at it until..........my boyfriend came to visit me and he stayed for a week and I only worked out for a day when he was here and it wasn't like an all in workout then.So I just have back into the swing of things, but I guess I'm done with this guys and I will write to you later. Have an amazeballs day! I love you all and Peace!!